Numbero 1: We will call this person younger man. Yes I think that's appropriate. Well we had always kinda had this sort of attraction to eachother it was evident to us and to others. Many others in our friend group were totally cool with holding hands but i never ha with him before. I can't quite remember who made the first move but I do remember it was easy. We held hands throughout the movie as my head rested on my shoulder. It was perfectly normal and just dandy. Life went on and nothing really happened. And now he denies it never happened. When me and all of the other people there are perfectly aware that it did.
Numbero 2: We shall call him.... Curly. So on a crazy minimal day we had taken a walk up the hill from the high school to my house. We were accompanied by Tanner, Camilla C., Camilla B., Mel, Taylor, and Nate. As we got to my house we watched X men a good movie and nothing happened I sat by Nate all was good. Then we were laughing like crazy people and then we started our next movie Mobsters and Mormons haha. So as a back story Camilla B. and Taylor are pretty much in love as they cuddled on the bean bag. And I was sitting on our chairs now in the middle of Nate and Curly. Us three kept joking about how we were gonna cuddle up there while they did down there. And that's when curly slowly held my hand and brought me closer to him. At first this felt like a total joke but as the movie went on it really didn't. He did the number one thing that makes me swoon ya know when they have your hand and they rub there thumb against there's ahhh I love that. So then that all went down and they left and I didn't expect him to like me cause I knew of his long list of girls. But it was weird that I was actually feeling something and that sucked. But as he said it was just a "friends with benefits" deal. I was like okay... We didn't talk normally for like two weeks but now were fine and that's not happening again.
Numbero 3: This one is especially close to the heart not only because of the person but because it happened just last night. I shall call this man Mr. J. Because that's cute:) So when I started high school there was only one guy who especially caught my eye. He was friends with some of my friends and we had two classes together. As we became closer he teased me a ton and I secretly loved it. So thanksgiving break is when I sorta told him I like him through his best friend and he gave me the whole "I'm glad were friends, lets keep it that way." So I gave up. But then right as I started to give up he started coming back I really was like WTF man!! But he's 16 an he said he wants to keep his options open. He promised himself that he wouldn't get serious with anyone which is why I had no idea that this was gonna happen. So we're watching a movie at my house as per usual. My perfect dream was that he would hold my hand but I didn't expect it to happen. So we sat by eachother but a cup holder was in between us. I put my hand down there just as an option ya know;) then he put his hang down there and then my hand was kinda resting on his. Then he grabbed my hand and interlocked out fingers. I was so shocked my stomach almost burst from butterflies. So our hands were freezing so he put a blanket over them. And he was really good at holding hands let me tell ya:) I was on cloud 9. So I went outside for a little bit cause someone was sending me on a wild goose chase. Then I came back and I couldn't feel my arms or my hands at all. So I came back and he put both of my hands under the blanket and was like rubbing them to warmth. It was so so so good. And we just kept holding hands right up until he left. And have me a hug goodbye. I was dying cause I thought that me might actually like me an that would make my whole life. So I was happy like skipping around until he texted me at 12:15 and said that he didn't mean any of it. I truly felt like the world had ended an I'm still pretty much crying over it as I write this post. So now I'm lost with him. I feel as though this will be even worse to get I've dear Mr. J then last time.
That's some of my depressing heartbreaks for the day.
Sad, Shelby.
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