I know, I know

I know that I say that I hate him, and sure I want to slap his cute little Mr. J face. Because maybe in my head that would even remotely hit him with the hurt that I had. I don't even know if I have the same feelings for him that I did. I do know that I hate seeing him walking around school with that girl that I have no idea what her name is. I do know when he ignores me it freaking hurts. And even after all that if he were to come to me I would run to him. I feel like he is my weakness and I know I need to move on and stop hurting myself with hope.
Come on Shelbs. You can do this
-Shelby Kathryn.