Dramatic venting post.

This post really has no direction. I just need to vent and I dont know who to vent to. So hey blog and blog readers it's your lucky day. (Jk)
Sometime I feel ugly, I feel fat, I feel stupid, pressured, stressed, lost. And so on and so forth. Teenager ism I like to call it. Why do I feel these things I will NEVER KNOW.
Boys don't like me and they never will. Ever. I'm so weird and ahhhh it just doesn't work out. I am so sick and tired of falling for guys and getting that stupid jealousy I get. I hate it.
Why the heck do I care so much about what guys think about me? I have no idea. I am always constantly giving people advice but I can't think of anything for myself. Why is it that I always want to look or be like someone else. I'm so messed up.
Do not read this post and think I'm like depressed I'm not. I'm just lost and need to vent.
There is always so much pressure on me and I feel like I have given up when it comes to grades and school, and that's a problem.
I just don't even know what to do. Satan is on my back big time!
I need to kick him in the face.
I want Ella home from Hawaii.
I want a boy to like me for me.
I want to not be so awkward.
I want to find myself.
My best friend, Braiden and I are lost but her doesn't know I am. I am trying to be strong for him. And have him not worrying about me.
I want to support Camilla. B in her relationship but sometimes it jut plain bugs.
I want to be a better friend to Camilla C. And be able to tell her more.
I want to not feel awkward with Tanner anymore or feeling like I need to walk away whenever he is near. Or when he is walking me to class and the girl he likes shows up and my legs move faster because I feel like I need to leave him alone and hold back years.
I need to stop trying to be perfect.
I need to talk to that boy.
Sorry this post was so dramatic so yeah.... I suck its fine.
-sucky single sophomore Shelby.